sleepwalk,,
daydreamer,,
hollow and empty, grief and sorrow,,
never as seem as it look, and never as smooth as i like to be,,,
please dont take her,, i’ll do anything to keep her with everyone she love,, everywhere she like to be,, everything she wants,,,
just take me,, please,,,
just take me from thiz F**kin life,, this sensation is overwhelming,,
drowning me into this catastrophy,,
tell me that everything will be okay,,
and i’ll forget thiz migrain in my head,,,
smile to me, and thiz sorrow will turn into sunshine,,
give me a long kiss goodnight, and i’ll sleep forever peacefully,,
leave me, and i’ll perish into the darkest pit of my life,,
leave me, and u,ll live u’r perfectly life,,
leave me, and there will be no more grief u’ll feel,,
and me ? i’m only nobody,, i dont belong in thiz universe,, my reason of existence is only God and u,,
when u’r gone, then in His Arm is my only place left to be,,,
gak pernah nyangka se bakal kembali nulis disini,,,
after almost 2 years vacuum,,,
^.^
kembali terjebak pada situasi yang sama,,, tampaknya saya dikutuk untuk menyayangi orang yang tidak bisa saya raih,,,
hahahahahahaha.. hidup memang lucu,,
tak pernah bisa ditebak, akan mengarah kemana,,,
tidak pernah skalipun saya menyangka, akan kembali menyayangi orang sedalam ini,,,
dan tidak pernah saya menyangka, akan ada orang yang bisa membuat saya mengingat kembali semua kenangan sedih itu tanpa harus terpuruk dalam kesedihan,,,
hanya satu sangkaku yang benar, bahwa dia tak dapat ku raih,,, huhuhuhuhu..
Princesz,,
i dont know, what is it u’ve been through all ur life,,
i dont know, what happenz 2 u all those years,,
i dont even know, when is ur birthday, whatz ur favourite food, whatz ur favourite colour, and all the little things about u,,
coz i dont care about u’r past,, even how bad it seems,,
all i know, is that i really care about u,,
how my heart flew when i see that smile in u’r face,, and how my heart seems to stopped when i felt ur sadness,,,
i really want to wipe that sadness from u,, and gave u more happinesz than u ever felt before,,,
i know, that in the end, u’ll be happy,,
u’ll live u’r life with a cheerfull face,, laugh and walk all around,,
and by that time, there will be someone there for u,, who will hug u, and give u warmness when u felt the cold,,
someone that willing to share the burden of life,, share every single moment of happiness and sadness in it,, together with u,,
someone that will love u more than he love’s himself,,
maybe by that time, u’ll hardly remember about me,,
maybe then, i’ll only be a shadow from u’r past,,
maybe then, when we pass each other again, u’ll say to u’rself " somehow, i felt like i’ve met that person", and that moment will flew in a blink of an eye,, u’ll went back to u’r beautiful life, and ignoring that moment, as it seems to be just an ordinary moment in u’r life,,
i’ll see u happy with grateful feeling,, watch u walk away with a warm heart,, and see u laugh with a tender voice that will melt my heart,,
and later, when we pass each other again, i’ll say to myself,"it’s her,, my princesz,, someone i’ll always love with my life",,
and i’ll always say the same thing as we pass each other,,
i’ll watch u go back to u’r love with smile of happinesz, knowing that u’ll forever safe and happy,,
but one thing for sure, i’ll be there to make sure u’ll alwayz happy,, it’s doesnt matter, i’ll be u’r love or not,,
coz for me, u’r all that matter,,, coz i know, i’ll only happy when i know that u’r happy,,
